I’m gazing at Facebook, watching everyday magic happening.
Seven weeks ago, I was sitting with my laptop, writing. I’ve written compulsively, for years, my own form of cheap therapy (and believe me, I’ve indulged in plenty of the expensive stuff too).
Sometimes, while situations are happening – good or bad – there’s a little elf in my head, doubled up laughing and scribbling notes. It’s like it’s the bit of me that won’t let me take myself too seriously – apart from when it socks me in the mouth with the fist of truth. It’s less funny on those days, but probably more helpful.
It’s a part of me that’s been around for so long I can’t imagine life without my internal narrator. My Word Elf, cracking inappropriate jokes and thumbing his nose at life. Giving me laughter and release and handles to hold the pain.
On that night nearly two months ago, I had an impulse. After muttering about blogging for years I took twenty minutes to write about something that had hurt at the time, and mellowed in retrospect. And then I set up a little WordPress site and made it public.
It was really hard. Much harder than I expected. Because writing is my thing. What I love and I have believed I’m good at. Dressing up the Word Elf in his smart new clothes and sending him out into the world was a strange kind of vulnerability.
Another bubble of magic pops on my feed. My one thousand, five hundred and fifty eighth follower.
People all over the world are reading my posts. Liking them, and sharing them, and maybe sometimes… feeling less alone in their own anti-fairytale lives.
I’m gawky, and uncoordinated. I’m horribly bad at dating. I stay up too late, and am way over-reliant on fish fingers.
But over 1,500 of you have taken the trouble to read my posts, and smile or be sad, and follow me.
Thank you, thank you, thank you. This has made more of a difference to my life than you’ll ever know.
PS. My web designer (bless his cotton socks – if he didn’t live in a whole other state I’d be tempted to create a fairy tale ending right there) tells me this would be the ideal time to ask you to sign up to the website. Please feel free to at the link at the end of this post.